Children are a gift from God

and so is my husband behind the pillow:)

This is our Christmas family photo. It's amazing that both boys and Ryan and I are smiling all at the same time! It sure helped having a friend dancing with a fish puppet behind the camera!
Merry Christmas!

A Post for Tonight

I feel like I'm in such a weird place in life right now. Figuring out what it's like to be living in my old body again, minus a few reminders of pregnancies past. I don't need to eat as much any more so I'm figuring out what is normal food intake now. Plus, I have had so many physical changes in the past 4 years, with getting married, children and big moves, I feel like I'm still trying to figure out life. I don't know if this makes any sense...I feel so weird at times, can't really explain myself to anyone, other than God's teaching me things, I'm slowly learning, slowly whatever else is happening...I have had lots of emotional lows, and some ups, but mostly lows, that I often don't talk to anyone about it, just honest when asked that I have struggles and need prayer. ANyways, so if nothing else, you could pray for me. Just that God would continue to draw me nearer to himself, I want to be closer to Jesus so that no matter what I go through I won't sink because of Him. I just put motions to Natalie Grant's song "held" and after listening to it over and over and over again I really got the message and it was so good. No matter what happens, the promise he's given us is that we'd be held.

I'm back

It's hard to keep up with blogging, and other blogs. I seem to go in spurts. I need to just focus on a few blogs and that's it. I've gotten into myspace a little bit, mostly because my brother lives on the other side of the world for certain reasons serving our country and I wanted to have better connectionwith him. It's only helped a little. And I feel that my time is so limited when I get on the computer I just gave up on blogging altogether. But what do I do when I'm on?? Well since we live in the middle of no where we've done a lot of online shopping from the comforts of home sending gifts to family on the mainland. Strangest holiday season so far. Not really purchasing too many gifts from stores, but it's good to not deal with the crowds and feel overwhelmed by all the commercialism. And no matter what you still end up spending too much time just looking before you actually decide on something...anyways, it's late and I should be in bed since I've been up since 4:45 am but I'm running on adrenaline right now. I helped put together a bridal shower and we had the party tonight and there was so much involved in getting it together with the food prep and all of that other stuff. I'm tired, but it was good and I think the bride was very blessed by it all.
Elijah is now finally weaned at 16 months of age. It happened naturally, it was a good time, and maybe I'll write more about it, we'll see. It's so strange for me to not be pregnant or nursing and to just be me and have my boys. I feel so blessed to have this time, and Lord willing it will still be at least a while longer before we have another one. I really would love to have at least one child potty trained before we have a third. And I can't wait to enjoy a glass of wine:) Tomorrow night will be the special time:) Kendal Jackson Riesling. Good stuff:) Moses just learned how to say his name a few weeks back. Now he refers to himself in the 3rd person a lot of time. "Mo-es help, Mo-es sit" it's sooooooo cute!!