Saturday, December 22, 2007
A Post for Tonight
I feel like I'm in such a weird place in life right now. Figuring out what it's like to be living in my old body again, minus a few reminders of pregnancies past. I don't need to eat as much any more so I'm figuring out what is normal food intake now. Plus, I have had so many physical changes in the past 4 years, with getting married, children and big moves, I feel like I'm still trying to figure out life. I don't know if this makes any sense...I feel so weird at times, can't really explain myself to anyone, other than God's teaching me things, I'm slowly learning, slowly whatever else is happening...I have had lots of emotional lows, and some ups, but mostly lows, that I often don't talk to anyone about it, just honest when asked that I have struggles and need prayer. ANyways, so if nothing else, you could pray for me. Just that God would continue to draw me nearer to himself, I want to be closer to Jesus so that no matter what I go through I won't sink because of Him. I just put motions to Natalie Grant's song "held" and after listening to it over and over and over again I really got the message and it was so good. No matter what happens, the promise he's given us is that we'd be held.
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I can relate to some of the feelings that you're going through. I wish we were closer so we could talk about it. I've struggled with knowing who I am where I am in life now. What is a pastor's wife supposed to be? I know I'm supposed to be myself, but what is myself? Who am I? Now that I'm a mother and not working any more I'm struggling with it even more. I was feeling pretty depressed a few months back and am finally out of that slump for the most part, but at times it comes back.
I will be praying for you!
I'm kinda worried about the eating thing after I'm done breastfeeding. I've been eating anything and everything lately and can't keep the weight on. I'm scared about what's going to happen when Maddox is done breastfeeding.
It's so good to hear from you. I have unlimited long distance after 9pm here and on the weekends, if you ever want to talk e-mail me or call me and I'll call you back.
{{{{{{{{Candice}}}}}}}}
Internet hug for you!!!
Two things: 1) You're not going to figure out life. Leave that one to God. All you need to do is rest in Him and let Him take care of the tough questions. Now you have to figure out how to do THAT! 2) Don't let the enemy cause you to wander off track. It's really easy to buy into the "poor me" and "what does it all mean" stuff, but it's a trap from the enemy designed to steal the joy from your life. Make sure you're taking time for REAL Bible study and prayer everyday -- and keep praying with Ryan everyday, too. Very important.
Love you, sis!
PS If you're not nursing, be careful of mindless eating!!! It took me 3 years to lose the pounds I put on after Evie quit nursing. Eek!!! Eliminate fast-foods and seconds. Hard, but healthy. And don't clean the kids' plates by scraping what they don't eat onto your plate! Throw it away, or get a dog!!!
I can totally relate to what you are feeling in this post. I have had many of the same feelings lately. I think this is something we women are prone too, especially those of us caring for our family and home full-time.
Right now my hubby has a long drive to work and that leaves me with no car all day unless I get up at 6am to drive him (yuck) so this makes me feel more "stuck" too.
I really enjoy your blog!
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