Another Dead End

I had another consultation with a dr. today. I was misinformed over the phone when the lady I talked to told me that they would do a vbac2. But when I went there she told me hospital policy, 2 c-sections and no previous vaginal birth, automatic c-section. The search for a vbac after 2 cesareans at a hospital has been very difficult. I have had no success yet. Ultimately we're praying for the Lord to speak to us about his will for us. Please pray that God would show us his will and give us peace. It has been quite emotional and discouraging.

Surprise!

It's a Boy | It's a Girl | I'm Expecting Graphics

We just found out today that we are having another boy! I just wanted to share the news:) We are very excited, though so surprised! I had the strongest feeling I've ever had about my baby's gender and I was convinced it was a girl. This pregnancy has even been a little differnt too. Well, the Lord knows best! We are thinking boy names now. I can't believe I'm going to have 3 boys! I always wanted boys since I grew up with so many sisters; I thought having boys would be fun and it is fun and loaded with energy! I hope that I get a girl someday. Funny story: So, since we thought we were having a girl, we talked about it being a baby sister a bit with the boys. Well, when we saw we were having a boy, we told the boys and Moses said, "No, I want a girl! I want a baby sister." Ah so sweet. He will love his little brother just as much I'm sure, it will just take awhile for the mental adjustment to set in. I am meeting with a dr. on Thursday that I am hoping will be the answer to our hunt for a vbac2. We will see how that goes. It's been such a discouraging search, but this prospect on Thursday looks hopeful. Oh yeah, the ultrasound showed the baby to be farther along then I thought. So the expected due date is March 18th. And I'm 20 weeks.

Fall Fun

It was a cold but beautiful day. We took our boys to a grand pumpkin patch and spent the day as a family.

Elijah trying to pull the pumpkin wagon.

My boys

Me and my little boys

Playing on the hay

Moses running

Atop the hay pyramid

So cute

Another cute one

Homemade Butter

I just made butter this morning. It takes about 15 minutes or so on a high speed in your mixer. I can't imagine how long it must have taken in the old days in a butter churn. I can see why butter must have been such a delicacy, it took so long to make. I had been wanting to make butter, just for fun to see how it would turn out, and was finally inspired to do so when I found this recipe.


I used 1 pint heavy whipping cream ultra pasteurized and I think it made about 1 cup butter and 1 cup buttermilk. It was fun:)

Teach them to Pray

We finally got a couch!  It's been such a blessing.  We have had one small recliner and a wooden rocking chair in our living room, and that's been great, but there is just something about a couch. With my growing tummy, the boys and I were beginning to get squished on our recliner during story time.  So, when we would sit for our morning bible reading, I would be reminded of how much I wanted a couch.  Well, i would talk to the boys about it and tell them how we needed to pray and ask God for a couch.  I don't know how long we've been praying, inconsistently since we moved back, but more regularly for the last month or so.  As far as prayer is concerned we've been trying our best to model how important it is to seek the Lord in everything and for all our needs.  It's been a blessing to see the fruit of that.  Well, Elijah is my 2 year old and the Lord did provide a couch for us.  A decently priced nice used couch which the owner graciously delivered to our house late one evening after the boys had already gone to sleep.   In the morning Elijah woke up and after greeting us in our room, he went to the living room and was so surprised to see the couch, he yelled(and this we heard lying in our bed still), "A couch!!  Elijah prayed!"  It was so sweet to hear him recognize that God answered his prayer.  He can running back into our room so excited,"Elijah prayed!  A couch!"  It's been such a blessing watching the Lord work in our boys hearts concerning prayer. 

Midwife visit

I still have not been to the doctor yet. I am supposed to have a consultation next week at a hospital here to discuss having a VBAC. We will go from there when we find out what they say. Well, I've been feeling so tired still, and in a different way from my other pregnancies. Like usually when I need to eat I get this intense feeling and I just have to eat and then I'm fine. But lately I've been feeling unwell when I need to eat, and at different times. Like light headed or something, and feeling like I need to lay down and that's all I can do. Anyways, I've been in touch with a midwife that my friend goes to and so today I went with her to her appointment. (There are two of them she sees and they are so nice. One or both might attend me as a doula if that works out for them in their schedule come due date time. They are strong believers and so sweet and sensitive to the Lord, it's been a blessing talking with them and then meeting them today). So, I saw them today and they were going to check my iron but their little machine thing broke right before we got there. But there are other signs that indicate low iron and they were confidant enough that I needed to take a suppletment. So I'm taking liquid iron and chrolophly. I hope it helps.

I also got to hear our baby's heartbeat today for the first time. There is something about hearing that sound when you can't see or feel the baby yet. I am just starting to feel a tiny bit of movement, but it's ever so subtle. So, it was neat to hear the heartbeat today.

Update on Scarlet

Here is an update on Scarlet:

The surgery went well and she is recovering in the Hospital. Her hCG levels are coming down fast and that she is now at levels of approx. 100,000 versus the 1.15 million just before the surgery. The hCG levels need to be at 0, but this reduction to 100,000 is a huge praise. Scarlett just had her Chemo treatment and they are watching to see how she responds to it. Please continue to pray that God's mercy would continue to be poured out on Scarlett in that He would remove every single Cancer cell in her body. Please pray for Scarlett's health during the Chemo treatments that she does not get other illnesses, such as colds, infections, etc... as her immune system will be weak from the chemo-therapy and can cause other issues.

Thanks for praying!

Please Pray

I am passing on a prayer request from a family that goes to our church. Please pray for scarlet who has cancer. Here is an excerpt from an email we received last night:

"Her HCG levels were at 190,000, the hope was that after the surgery it should have dropped down drastically moving towards zero, well instead of going down, the HCG levels have almost quadrupled to 795,000 and there is a big mass again growing in her uterus."

Today they are going to have hysterectomy surgery and start a single dose chemo, which is supposed to have a high success rate. This sweet family has 7 or 8 children under the age of 12, I do believe. Please pray for strength and healing and ultimately for the Lord's will to be done. Pray for peace for the whole family. Though such a trying time for this family I am encouraged by their faith. Here is the ending to the email written by the husband:

"We are trusting in God, we know that He is a good God, He is Sovereign and controls every single cancer cell in Scarlett's body. He has known about Scarlett getting Cancer before the creation of the world, that being said, our hope is in Him, we love Him and know He has a purpose in this. May we glorify God in the good time and the extremely difficult times. We've had a lot of mixed emotions in the last week and a half...with the loss of the Baby we thought we were going to have, then emergency surgery, now cancer, then the fact that Scarlett will not be able to bare any more children next week from the hysterectomy surgery. After much prayer, we have decided to have Scarlett have the hysterectomy and to start the single dose chemo tomorrow. This is an extremely hard and painful decision for us both. Through all of this though God has kept our minds and hearts focused on Him,... praise be to Him! We appreciate your prayers."

Thank you for praying